Welcome to yingyingstar.blogspot.com

- xinying, but can call me lin or ying
- 21 years old at last
- working as interior designer rite now
- born in 5th jun

- him aka dear dear
- my friends
- slp
- listenin to music + singing
- fashion & bridal mag
- shopping
- chatting on phone

- going vacation to many places
- be a tai tai
- the 'IT' bag
- my big snoopy balloon
- iPod touch 16GB
- COACH photoframe keychain
- woodstock crystal
- to love my dear dear always

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so long never blog ... finally , it's 2009 ... looking fwd to tis year as i think 2008 is not a very gd year for me ... except tat i meet my dear dear ... which also once in a while causes prob ... hee ...

finally exercise today ... haha ... it's been 5 years ...

cheack out alot of nice restaurants today , wanted to go all of them one day ... i have some in mind tat i hope i can celebrate my bday in ... hee ... hope dear dear will arrange for me ...

looking fwd to his bday ... plan so hard n long ... hope everything will turn out fine ... i wan to try the food there ... haha , will it be divine ...

work hard ... jia you !!!

haiz ... hate to stay at hm now .. so much tension everywhere ... y my mum n dad become like tat ... haiz .. can i move out to stay ? but moving out wun solve any of their problems , mayb they will become worse ... haiz , today come hm with my dad tellin me tat my mum is angry with him ... i knew it , frm the day she is back , her whole face is black all along ... my dad claim tat he is stress ... gosh , i hope he will be able to stand it , wat if he becomes like tammy's dad , suddenly got suicide tots how ... it's goin to be a new year , y cant everyone jus b happy ... seriously , i am tried to see them like tat ... i wonder will they end up divorce ... wat is marriage ? to me , my dad is considered mr. good already ... he's hardworking , know alot of things , like when hse got things broken down , at least he still know how to fix it ... i wonder whether my dear dear even noe anot ... ok la , the reason my mum give is not totally not my dad fault ... but haiz , it's like becoming mor n mor serious ... n tis type of thing at most let u angry for 2 days ... i wonder if they continue like tat , they will only b cold war ... where shuld i stand ... no where ... haiz ... is hurtful to keep hearing my dad sighing ... he says now he everyday has nightmare when mum is back ... gosh .. i feel like i cant do anything to help ... useless there man ... i hate myself ...

i am broke man ... not totally broke , but i din save any money recently .. i jus wonder how come ... next month oso no saving ... wat has happen to me ... i jus browse through COACH website , n i saw a bag tat i reali like ... wonder how much will it be in sing dollar ... hopefully is jus ard 800 plus , so tat i can mayb still afford it if i jus save a bit harder ... money money ... y i cant win 4D ... i knew it ... sat was such a bad day for me , luck is not there with me , i definately wun win anything one ... i dread the idea of goin to work tomoro ... after yday work , i am totally exhausted ... i need a break ... at least for 2 days ... hopin new year will arrive early ... i cant wait ... ok , i shall start to prepare to slp ...

hopefully tomoro will be a better day ...

" u give me nothing but pain " ...

pain tat is so sharp , so suffocating , so frustrating , so miserable , jus so pain ...

i wish i could go back ...

haha , watch some movies over the weekends and wanted to write it down oso for memories ... while i wait for my stupid damn internet explorer update ...

first , TWILIGHT !!! haha ... ok , the story line is interesting ... the kiss is so woah ... so intense until i hope for more ... haha ... basically the whole movie is ok , just tat the front part is a bit too slow moving ... but according to some fans , is becos it follows the book , so cant be blame ... haha , too little action , hoping it to be longer ... but i like the love story of theirs ... i like the Cullens family alot oso , they r cute n jus friendly ... haven read the book , i heard there are some parts which is different like their first kiss ... i am now reading the second book 'new moon' ... haha , since when i become bookworm oso ... but the second book is almost all abt bella and jacob , rather than bella and edward ... haha , i admit i am bias ... haha ... waiting for the second movie to come , though i noe i will b disappointed as book is always better than movie ... haha ...

second , the DAY the earth stood still ... haha , i cant stop but keep thinking abt albert joke with tis title ... i highlight the DAY cos basically , there is no specific DAY in this movie saying that the earth will stood still ... the day jus happen suddenly ... haha ... the effect was gd , but the endings sucks ... is kind of stupid ... the fact i watch tis show is becos of keanu reeves ... he's handsome ... haha ... esp when he wear the suit ... omg ... tis movie can b made better , tat's wat i think ...

haha , 2 mor movies coming up tat i wan to watch ... first is australia ... i love seeing gorgeous nicole kidman and hugh jackman together ... second , adam sandler's bedtime stories ... i think tis show will be like night at the museum ... sure will be fun n funny ... i like comedy ...

haha , ok la , i wan to go n continue reading my book ...

i wish to be alone sometimes ... haiz ...

recently , sometimes whenever i think of the topic 'friends', it jus make me sad ... it's like everyone is leading their own life , some r still in contact , some once a while still in contact , some totally no contact ... is like whenever i think back like my sec sch times , i miss the days we just always hang around with each other ... see each other everyday n still not sian ... miss the days of the 6 of us in the art room ... i guess tat time reali bonded us well ... i jus wonder , wat if we get married n have kids , r we jus goin to seperate from each other ... it's pretty sad to think of tat ... n poly life ... those times in the studio struggling ... battling with some stupid lecturers ... haha ... i reali do miss all of them ... is there a time machine ? i feel myself gettin unhappier n unhappier as each years pass ... oh man ... will i step on my mum's path ? though reading back my old diary , i noe we r childish n everythin ... but i still miss my sec sch time the most ... all the friends , teachers ... experience , even experience with jasley is unforgettable ... it makes me stronger to face things next time ... haha ... i wan a doremon for my own ... i wan the time machine ... i wan to see wat will i be in few years time ... will i be gone ? will i get married to him ? will i have beautiful kids ? haha , all sorts of qn ... so many ...

wed jus had a small tiff with him ... he say it's difficult abt us ... i think he meant difficult in handling the relationship ba ... i was sad ... cried on tat nite ... sometimes i jus wonder , did i make the wrong step ... shuld we jus stay as friends ? but i reali hopin to have a future with him ... but he say he's not ready for the 111111 thing ... sad again ... it's my hope to get marry young to get out frm the hse ... out frm my mum ... i wonder how long shuld i wait ... but now , i am still happily plannin his bday ... it's a headache ... wat i wan to do cant b done ... shark ... haiz ... i hope i have parents like kai xin ... man ...

haiz ... shall write mor next time ... it's not gd to always blog during work ... haha , ok , i shall go now ...

watched 2 movies during the holidays ... feel like writing my tots down so tat i can remember better next time ...

first, BOLT ... haha ... cute, funny, heartwarming story ... definately a must watch for dog lovers ... haha ... i like rhino too , the cute hamster ... the story line is interesting , it's funny , wat's more to ask for ... though is a typical happy ending, but hey, it's a cartoon , of course a happy ending is needed ...

next , zack and miri make a porno ... haha , tis is the first R21 show tat i watched .. haha .. the cashier wan to check my IC ... haha ... but the show din come out to be as sexual as i first tot ... ya , there is some thrusting here n there ... see big boobs of a girl ... but when it comes to the male n female lead , it's romantic rather than sexual ... first , u cant see anything , n their kiss , woah ... nice ... haha , but i feel tat the show can b better ... it's definately a date show ... the couple r sweet ... i oso wan to fantasy abt being a sweet couple ... haha ...

ok la , ppl r coming back , i have to write mor next time ... i wan to write alot one ... haha ...

haiz ... wat had happened to me ... i begin to think of the bad things ... reali bad things ... i have no confidence in anything ... i am jus worried tat it might jus ends early ... i dun even noe wat am i reali feelin ...

spare me ... jus take me away ... out frm tis place where i dun belong ... out frm tis digusting world ...